I want to lose control, like you do when you're missing yourself. I'm haunted day and night without myself. Someone, bring me to life and give me a tourniquet to hold my heart and veins together again. Hopefully I'll be good enough for someone, I'm frightened of going under the surface like I did before. With my last breath, and until I breathe no more, I will stay a surfaced. You made me hurt and weep when you were drunken with hate. Now you whisper my name for your selfish needs? Call me when you're sober, then I'll see, til' then you're everybody's fool and an imaginary lover. You are the only one I know that hurts me for pleasure. Let the weight of the world push down on your shoulders, and I hope you fall. Now, love and life is all that I'm living for.......